The first part of the journal is about a young woman suffering from anorexia, who has found her way out of this mysterious and dangerous disease and now enjoys a healthy life again. It leads the readers gain insights into her therapy records and explains her thoughts and feelings that have accompanied the therapy. In the second part of the diary, therapy records are presented by several patients, with the help of which the “secret language of eating disorders” can be clarified, immersed in this world of thoughts, and how the true inner voice of the patients grows larger in therapy to win over the diseased, negative voice through objectivity.
Where / how do I notice my disease? In which situation does it affect me?
|Patientin||Fragen der Therapeutin|
|If someone spontaneously asks me if I want to do something, I first consider if this collides with my mealtimes||What would happen if it wouldn’t fit in?
Imagine, you go with it. What would happen? Would it be so bad that you couldn‘t stand it?
|When I go out in the evenings, I couldn’t come home late at night because I have to get up early to do sports and earn my food||Which person has to earn his food and why?|
|I cannot stay overnight with friends or spontaneously go to a concert (or anything else) overnight, because in the morning I have to go through my plan which is always the same.||Why is this like this?
Who tells you so?
Do you want to let your life be determined by a plan forever?
|Before going into an exam, I am always convinced that I will fail for sure. I do not dare and cannot trust in my performance.||Have you ever failed in an exam?|
|I’m so scared to get close to anyone because I’m scared he’ll realize what a bad, stupid, boring person I am. So far I have pushed away or denied any relationship / partner.||How do you know that you are a bad, stupid and boring person? Has anyone ever said that to you? What was the worst thing you’ve ever done in your life?|
Shopping: I look at things I would like to eat, put them back, take them again, watch the calories, put them back …. That saddens me because I can never enjoy anything without thinking
|What exactly do you think in these situations?
Why can’t you take your things?
What would happen if you would “allow” it?
|I am constantly restless, always have to do something, work or clean
Only when I have done quite a lot in one day, I may allow myself to lie down or rest.
|Who determines your day?
Who says you have to work first to rest?
Is there a law?
|I do not dare to leave my structure and try new things. The structure gives me control and security.||The structure torments you and keeps you from many things in life. The control is deceptive. Not you but your illness controls it|
|I never dare to say my opinion because I am afraid that the others will not like me anymore.|
Task of the therapist: Do not do sports for 1 day